Monday, June 1, 2015

And God Said....

One of the most challenging things about being a Christian is getting my mind and heart in line with what the Bible says. I once heard a lady say, "I didn't like that word so I just blacked it out. Is that okay?"

One way to avoid that problem is to avoid my Bible. If I don't see it in black and white, I can pretend it says what I want it to say.

Oooh, but if I go to church regularly (one that reads and teaches directly from the Bible), I see it. I read things I don't like or agree with. There are things in the Bible that conflict with my experience, perspective, opinions or political view. What then? I can try to explain it away, "God didn't mean it that way," or "Doesn't it say something different somewhere else?" Or I can rationalize the fact that I'm better than most people I know (or at least some of them).

Worst of all, I can imagine my life is what the Bible says. I think I'm kind, good, and yeah, Jesus's got my back.

This week I've been reading "Respectable Sins" by Jerry Bridges and, ooh, ouch--I'm more and more aware that when I make a transparency of my life and lay it over the pages of Scripture, they don't match. I've been studying Isaiah and have been reminded that God's Word says, first and foremost, what it said to its original hearers/readers. I must be careful not to make it say what God never intended. And I've been reading material from the background of someone who preaches the Bible (and other spiritual books) but left out the most important of all--Jesus.



That said, I will never live up to God's standard. Ever. I will never completely understand who God is and how He works. But I can know Jesus. I can surrender to God through the penalty Jesus paid in my place. I can stand before God in Jesus' righteousness. I can pray directly to the Father because of Jesus. I can learn about Him, ask Him to help me understand His Word and live in a way that pleases Him. But without Jesus, there's no gospel. No good news. And the Bible is meaningless. Oh, yeah. I read Ecclesiastes this week, too--and guess what? It's a joke. It's meaningless. Life really is hopeless without Jesus.

With the assurance of God's love and forgiveness in Christ, I can lay my life over the Word of God and experience peace, joy, satisfaction and motivation to change. I have a reason to get out of bed in the morning, to make friends, to help others, to go to church, to love my husband and children.... All because God said...and sent the Word: Jesus.

In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. He was in the beginning with God. All things came into being through Him, and apart from Him nothing came into being that has come into being. In Him was life, and the life was the Light of men. The Light shines in the darkness, and the darkness did not comprehend it.

There came a man sent from God, whose name was John. He came as a witness, to testify about the Light, so that all might believe through him. He was not the Light, but he came to testify about the Light.

There was the true Light which, coming into the world, enlightens every man. He was in the world, and the world was made through Him, and the world did not know Him. He came to His own, and those who were His own did not receive Him. But as many as received Him, to them He gave the right to become children of God, even to those who believe in His name, who were born, not of blood nor of the will of the flesh nor of the will of man, but of God.

And the Word became flesh, and dwelt among us, and we saw His glory, glory as of the only begotten from the Father, full of grace and truth. John testified about Him and cried out, saying, “This was He of whom I said, ‘He who comes after me has a higher rank than I, for He existed before me.’” For of His fullness we have all received, and grace upon grace. For the Law was given through Moses; grace and truth were realized through Jesus Christ. No one has seen God at any time; the only begotten God who is in the bosom of the Father, He has explained Him. (John 1:1-18 NASB)

Thursday, May 14, 2015

Failure on the Bench, Fire in the Hole

When I was young, my mother read books illustrated by Eloise Wilkin--and her paintings are still some of my favorites. Try as might--3rd grade, 7th grade, every time I went to art class--I could not begin to duplicate the delicacy and reality she brought my little life.

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Life has moved on. I've grown up and realized that there's not much I can draw beyond stick figures and basic conceptual shapes. It's been a disappointment. By God's grace, disappointment came quickly, before I'd spent countless hours pursuing a path of empty dreams.

That's one area of life--but there are others. In some, I paddle fiercely; in others, I am resigned to life on the bench. But there's more to it than that.

The Bible says "to each one is given the manifestation of the Spirit for the common good" (1 Corinthians 12:7). You might like to know that the original Greek means, "each one." Yes. Everyone. Personally. Each. Those of us who have a redeemed relationship with God through Christ (see right sidebar) have been given a "manifestation of the Spirit" (I looked that up in Greek, too, and "manifestation" means "manifestation.")

Years ago a pastor asked me to join him in visiting with a couple who received news the husband was dying of cancer. We listened and prayed. The couple left and the pastor turned to me. "Since you have the gift of mercy and I don't, I'd like you to take care of them." What?! "But you're their pastor!"

That moment drove me back to Scripture and this interesting insight: many of the "manifestations" or spiritual gifts God gives His children are extensions of their new nature. He seems to give a boost to certain individuals, but the primary trait is shared (should be shared) by all believers: wisdom, knowledge, faith, service, teaching, encouragement, giving, mercy, evangelism. We are all called to be wise in the way we live (Ephesians 5:15-16), to be generous on every occasion (2 Corinthians 9:8-11), to be merciful (Matthew 5:7)...and the list goes on.

That means you and I are without excuse. God has purposed, enabled and equipped us to represent Him, within the Church (and to a dying world), in a supernatural way. And when we get it--when we learn to depend on God and get busy discovering His design for each of us--we're no longer a failure on the bench. There's fire in the hole! God is at work. We see the need, depend on His grace, and get to work, fighting discouragement, rankle, and fatigue. There's no time to mewl over warming the bench, I have a course of action and contribution to make--because I am an "each one."

On a different level, we have natural gifts and abilities--i.e. artistry--that God redeems as uses for His purpose as well. And that is another area of struggle because "I want" to do certain things...and God gives that job to someone else. "I want" to do a different thing....but God didn't give me the capacity to do it well. "I want" to be seen or appreciated...and it never seems to happen that way. And as I struggle with the places God puts me and the opportunities He gives, my heart is drawn to praise and glorify His wisdom. He is using the "yes's" and the "no's" to make me more like Jesus--not more like myself. And that (as many of you know) is a blessing to us all!

The end of all things is near. Therefore be alert and of sober mind so that you may pray. Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins. Offer hospitality to one another without grumbling. Each of you should use whatever gift you have received to serve others, as faithful stewards of God’s grace in its various forms. If anyone speaks, they should do so as one who speaks the very words of God. If anyone serves, they should do so with the strength God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus Christ. To him be the glory and the power for ever and ever. Amen. (1 Peter 4:7-11)


Sunday, May 3, 2015

Got Grace?

It's not something we usually say (or admit to thinking), but here it is: grace is a scary thing. Why? Because we don't really deserve it. And if I didn't do anything to earn it, why me and not someone else? And why me? Period. One girl recently said about Jesus, "That sounds too good to be true. I think I'd better take you up on it!"

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Grace is great when we feel like it's the icing on the cake--we did something well but got more than we expected. Grace is great when it's within reason--somehow we can repay the kindness, make it up, or pay it forward. That kind of grace makes me feel good about myself.

But too much grace? Too much grace makes me feel wrong. Unworthy. Undeserving.  A gift can be too expensive. It can read too much into a relationship. There must be a mistake. Something is wrong...

And that's the way of God's grace toward us. It's simply too much--or is it? In my mind, I know God's not wrong--but my heart doesn't want to admit that my sin is really that bad.... and that God's grace is really that good.

What does it mean that God actually left heaven and took on earthly form? Was it really necessary that He give himself over to be tortured, mocked, humiliated and mutilated? When I try to get my mind around what it cost Jesus to die and pay the debt of my sin, I can't imagine it. To think of how much pain and suffering God the Father experienced to buy me back from the slave market of sin, I will never fully comprehend it. That is His grace--something He didn't have to do, but chose to, because of love.

If He did all of that, then there must be something I can bring to the table.... Perhaps He saw ahead of me and knew I would do this special thing or be a wonderful kind of person?

He saved us, not on the basis of deeds which we have done in righteousness, but according to His mercy... (Titus 3:5)

And you were dead in your trespasses and sins, in which you formerly walked according to the course of this world, according to the prince of the power of the air, of the spirit that is now working in the sons of disobedience. Among them we too all formerly lived in the lusts of our flesh, indulging the desires of the flesh and of the mind, and were by nature children of wrath, even as the rest. But God, being rich in mercy, because of His great love with which He loved us, even when we were dead in our transgressions, made us alive together with Christ (by grace you have been saved)... (Ephesians 2:1-5).

I didn't do good deeds. I was actually dead (dead  people are rather useless). I chose to live in disobedience and rebellion. Life was all about me and getting what I wanted.

And that's what makes grace so uncomfortable. Unsettling. It's not about me anymore. It never was. It's all about God's goodness and grace--goodness, grace and riches that He lavishes on those who come, by grace alone, though faith alone, in Christ alone (Ephesians 1:8; 2:8-9).

Got grace? I will lavish as much grace on others as I take hold of myself. In my grumpy moments, my selfish moments, my didn't-get-my-way moments: I have been given limitless grace at no cost to myself. I have received more than enough grace to forgive an offense, let go of a grudge, return good for evil, confront with love, and give generously. What does it cost to give it to others? Only that which is dead, forgiven, removed, and best forgotten: pride, self-seeking, envy, anger, bitterness, resentment. To give grace is to die to self.

Grace. It's just that amazing...